you're a mess, Aditya

I've got a call today. From A. It's the 2nd call since he has a girlfriend again. The thing is, i just realize how can i be this happy when i heard my phone rang and it was him. The happy feeling i never felt when i got phone calls or messages from T. However A is already here when T just come into my life.
I got really happy, excited and wondered when i look my phone and there's a message from A. Maybe it's too much i'm happy with just get a message, but it is. We never communicate each other since he has a new girlfriend. He just gone. And then come back again. He always like that, come and go as his self want. I never can complain about this. I'm too afraid if he really gone.
And i just realize this afraid feeling even more i feel when A is gone than when T is gone. I cried when T say goodbye, but that's it. I never feel afraid about he-is-not-here-anymore. I just think he's gone so what's next? Yeah something like that. But A, he got me afraid without saying any goodbye thing. He makes my emotion up and down. He makes me happy just by have a call with. Something small but it has big effect for me.
Like today, it simply like this:
A: ehem
M: ehem jugaaa. ono opo mas?
A: dmn?
(i didn't reply yet, he text me again)
A: boleh tak telfon ga?
M: boleh silahkan
Just like that, and less from 1 minute my phone rang and he call.
I'm happy, for sure. But i don't know what i feel for him. He's a playboy and has a girlfriend. But he's a nice and really funny guy. I can't stop laughing if he call :)