you make me being a stupid

Call me stupid, call me naive
I'm just start expecting too much again
You, somehow being important to me
Though i was felt like that before
And i remember it's not easy to make myself realize to not hoping
You make it again now
Put that laugh that jokes that voice in my head
Keep and lock it and rewind it again and again, make myself want to hear that again and again
You, somehow become addiction
That voice, i would do anything to hear that again
It's not too much but it is what i feel
I'm blind, i can't see that's a wrong
Huge wrong to let you fill my head like you was before
I was cried, once today
I don't know it can be that sad to hear your voice when i realize you don't even care
You asked what happened to me i said it's nothing
But then you made a joke made me laugh
It's simply like that you make me forget the fact that you such a womanizer

you're a mess, Aditya

I've got a call today. From A. It's the 2nd call since he has a girlfriend again. The thing is, i just realize how can i be this happy when i heard my phone rang and it was him. The happy feeling i never felt when i got phone calls or messages from T. However A is already here when T just come into my life.
I got really happy, excited and wondered when i look my phone and there's a message from A. Maybe it's too much i'm happy with just get a message, but it is. We never communicate each other since he has a new girlfriend. He just gone. And then come back again. He always like that, come and go as his self want. I never can complain about this. I'm too afraid if he really gone.
And i just realize this afraid feeling even more i feel when A is gone than when T is gone. I cried when T say goodbye, but that's it. I never feel afraid about he-is-not-here-anymore. I just think he's gone so what's next? Yeah something like that. But A, he got me afraid without saying any goodbye thing. He makes my emotion up and down. He makes me happy just by have a call with. Something small but it has big effect for me.
Like today, it simply like this:
A: ehem
M: ehem jugaaa. ono opo mas?
A: dmn?
(i didn't reply yet, he text me again)
A: boleh tak telfon ga?
M: boleh silahkan
Just like that, and less from 1 minute my phone rang and he call.
I'm happy, for sure. But i don't know what i feel for him. He's a playboy and has a girlfriend. But he's a nice and really funny guy. I can't stop laughing if he call :)

Kalo ada ramalan bintang yg bilang aries kesehatannya lagi baik, berarti ramalan itu SALAH BESAR
Kenapa?
Saya aries, tapi saya lagi sakit sekarang
Sakit pinggang -_-
Ga keren bener yah
Orang mah sakit pilek panas db tipes atau apa kek gitu yg bagusan
Ini ko saya sakit pinggang
Jadi berasa nenek nenek
Kata mama saya kurang minum makanya sakit
Yaiya sih wong saya sehari paling cuma minum segelas malah kadang2 ga minum
Trus ditambah kemaren saya ngedrop
Pilek, panas, kaki tangan dingin, tenggorokan sakit
Kata mama kalo saya udah kaya gtu berarti mau kena db
Fyi, saya kena db udah 2 kali -_-
Sampe trombosit saya dulu pernah tinggal 5000 hahaha
Tapi saya tetep bisa pecicilan padahal kata dokter trombosit segitu dikit lagi lewat -_-
Jadilah saya disuruh minum macem2
Kemaren saya ngabisin pocari 2liter, jus jambu yg kardus gede, indomilk yg kardus gede, sama bearbrand
Hasilnya? Alhamdulillah sembuh
Tapi saya harus bolak balik kamar mandi tiap 5menit sekali
Kebelet pipis!
Sakit pinggang saya juga ilang
Tapi kemaren doang huhu
Sekarang saya minumnya ga barbar lagi kaya kemaren, pinggangnya sakit lagi :(
Doain saya ya biar sembuh, nanti saya doain balik deh
Ditambah peluk cium dari saya biar tambah cepet sembuh :p


p.s : saya masih ngepost dari hp nih maafin yah kalo postingannya begenyeh -_-. makanya pasangin rumah saya internet dong! hahaha

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Hola! Udah lama yah saya ga nge post
Saya barusan abis ngeliat liat postingan saya yg dulu dulu
Kalo di liat liat lucu juga ya
Dulu saya cinta setengah mati (duileh cinte -_-) sama katakanlah si A
Trus ga brapa lama udah ganti jadi sama si B
Hahahahaha saya pengen ketawa jadinya
Manusia gampang banget berubah ya
Belum tentu yg dirasain hari ini bakal sama kaya yg dirasain besok
Tapi tenang aja B cinta saya ga berubah ko ke kamu -____-
Hahahaha becanda becanda
Tapi saya serius kalo saya bilang saya masih sayang kamu..
Ah udah udah nanti jadi galau hahaha

Well, internet rumah saya dicabut nih beberapa bulan terakhir ini
Tagihan listrik dan telfon rumah bengkak gara gara saya
Yaiyalah wong kalo main internet bisa dari pagi sampe pagi lagi
Dan itu bisa setiap hari lagi hahaha
Maaf yah pak, ma hehe cupmuah :p
Jadilah ini saya ngepost dari hp
Tangan saya keriting nih ngetik panjang banget huhu
Tapi gimana dong saya kangen ngeblog :D

Eh ngomong ngomong LIA saya hampir selesai loh hehe
Kemaren kemaren udah repot bikin essay sama presentasi
Nanti tinggal deg2an pas tesnya
Semoga lulus amiiiinnn
Ngomong ngomong lagi tentang LIA, kemaren saya kenalan sama si arab!!! Hihihi
Si arab yg mana? Yg ituloh yg udah sering liat liatan dari jaman hi 2 hahaha
Berkah ramadan deh tuh emang :p

Ramadan ya...
Besok lebaran loh...
Saya sih seneng besok dapet angpau
Tapi sedih deh karna udah ga ramadan lagi huhuhuhu

Bye ramadan,
See you next year yah
Tapi tahun depan saya udah di Bandung atau Jogja pas ketemu kamu
Amiiiiiinnn ya Allah

Happy ied, everyone
Forgive every mistakes i ever did yaa :D