I decided to close that old book.
Leave every part, every chapter, all the characters, and the memories.
Leave the joy, happiness, pain, and heartache.
That's over, really over.
I need rest from everything.
abstrak
25.10.10
Terkadang Anda terlalu sarkatis dalam melihat dunia.
Dan terkadang sangat amat bijak dalam pemikiran.
Anda bisa menjadi orang paling baik sedunia dan pada detik berikutnya Anda berubah menjadi orang yang seenaknya.
Saya tidak mengerti Anda.
Anda abstrak, saya bilang.
Pikiran dan sifat yang tidak pernah sama setiap kali Saya bertemu Anda, itu abstrak.
Tapi ke-abstrak-an itu yang membuat Anda menarik.
Dan itu pula yang membuat Saya seperti layangan Anda.
Dan terkadang sangat amat bijak dalam pemikiran.
Anda bisa menjadi orang paling baik sedunia dan pada detik berikutnya Anda berubah menjadi orang yang seenaknya.
Saya tidak mengerti Anda.
Anda abstrak, saya bilang.
Pikiran dan sifat yang tidak pernah sama setiap kali Saya bertemu Anda, itu abstrak.
Tapi ke-abstrak-an itu yang membuat Anda menarik.
Dan itu pula yang membuat Saya seperti layangan Anda.
Gimana? Gimana?? -_-
12.10.10
Menurut temen saya, saya cuma cadangan kamu
Menurut temen saya, seharusnya saya gausah deket sama kamu lagi
Tapi,
Gimana saya bisa pergi kalo setiap kamu cerita selalu berhasil bikin saya ketawa? Gimana saya bisa lepas kalo setiap ada apa apa yg saya cari kamu?
Dan..
Gimana saya bisa lupa kalo di setiap doa saya ada kamu?
Menurut temen saya, seharusnya saya gausah deket sama kamu lagi
Tapi,
Gimana saya bisa pergi kalo setiap kamu cerita selalu berhasil bikin saya ketawa? Gimana saya bisa lepas kalo setiap ada apa apa yg saya cari kamu?
Dan..
Gimana saya bisa lupa kalo di setiap doa saya ada kamu?
Sunshine after the rain
9.10.10
"Sunshine After the Rain - Alexander"
Woke up this morning
Another brand new start
That' s our life
I jumped with every beat of my heart
When you came over
I could see something was wrong
It really isn't worth that you
just get to keep moving alone
You know that - I always be there
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
But there's one thing I won't change
We known each other
Since I don't know how long
As long as I remember
You were always there
Singing along
There 's been some good times
And it's even been some sad
But we always somehow managed
To get something good
Out of the bad
Remember - I'll always be there
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
But there‘s one thing I won't change
Some say that friends
will come and go
But this thing we have
will always grow
This (is weglassen ) one thing
I want show
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you‘re in need of a friend
`cause a shoulder to cry on
someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
`cause there‘s one thing I won't change
i have searching the singer of this song since 6 months ago. and finally i know who's the singer when the night i had a phone call with... yeah i don't want to mention the name. he also likes this song as much as i am i think. this is a song from his ex hahaha.
i remember 6 months ago when i was in my down-est condition, suddenly i remember the refrain of this song. " i'll be your sunshine after the rain......". repeat and repeat again. i googled and also search it in youtube but i just found the up-beat version not the slow version. and i recommend you to listen to the slow one :)
you make me being a stupid
26.9.10
Call me stupid, call me naive
I'm just start expecting too much again
You, somehow being important to me
Though i was felt like that before
And i remember it's not easy to make myself realize to not hoping
You make it again now
Put that laugh that jokes that voice in my head
Keep and lock it and rewind it again and again, make myself want to hear that again and again
You, somehow become addiction
That voice, i would do anything to hear that again
It's not too much but it is what i feel
I'm blind, i can't see that's a wrong
Huge wrong to let you fill my head like you was before
I was cried, once today
I don't know it can be that sad to hear your voice when i realize you don't even care
You asked what happened to me i said it's nothing
But then you made a joke made me laugh
It's simply like that you make me forget the fact that you such a womanizer
I'm just start expecting too much again
You, somehow being important to me
Though i was felt like that before
And i remember it's not easy to make myself realize to not hoping
You make it again now
Put that laugh that jokes that voice in my head
Keep and lock it and rewind it again and again, make myself want to hear that again and again
You, somehow become addiction
That voice, i would do anything to hear that again
It's not too much but it is what i feel
I'm blind, i can't see that's a wrong
Huge wrong to let you fill my head like you was before
I was cried, once today
I don't know it can be that sad to hear your voice when i realize you don't even care
You asked what happened to me i said it's nothing
But then you made a joke made me laugh
It's simply like that you make me forget the fact that you such a womanizer
you're a mess, Aditya
16.9.10
I've got a call today. From A. It's the 2nd call since he has a girlfriend again. The thing is, i just realize how can i be this happy when i heard my phone rang and it was him. The happy feeling i never felt when i got phone calls or messages from T. However A is already here when T just come into my life.
I got really happy, excited and wondered when i look my phone and there's a message from A. Maybe it's too much i'm happy with just get a message, but it is. We never communicate each other since he has a new girlfriend. He just gone. And then come back again. He always like that, come and go as his self want. I never can complain about this. I'm too afraid if he really gone.
And i just realize this afraid feeling even more i feel when A is gone than when T is gone. I cried when T say goodbye, but that's it. I never feel afraid about he-is-not-here-anymore. I just think he's gone so what's next? Yeah something like that. But A, he got me afraid without saying any goodbye thing. He makes my emotion up and down. He makes me happy just by have a call with. Something small but it has big effect for me.
Like today, it simply like this:
A: ehem
M: ehem jugaaa. ono opo mas?
A: dmn?
(i didn't reply yet, he text me again)
A: boleh tak telfon ga?
M: boleh silahkan
Just like that, and less from 1 minute my phone rang and he call.
I'm happy, for sure. But i don't know what i feel for him. He's a playboy and has a girlfriend. But he's a nice and really funny guy. I can't stop laughing if he call :)
I got really happy, excited and wondered when i look my phone and there's a message from A. Maybe it's too much i'm happy with just get a message, but it is. We never communicate each other since he has a new girlfriend. He just gone. And then come back again. He always like that, come and go as his self want. I never can complain about this. I'm too afraid if he really gone.
And i just realize this afraid feeling even more i feel when A is gone than when T is gone. I cried when T say goodbye, but that's it. I never feel afraid about he-is-not-here-anymore. I just think he's gone so what's next? Yeah something like that. But A, he got me afraid without saying any goodbye thing. He makes my emotion up and down. He makes me happy just by have a call with. Something small but it has big effect for me.
Like today, it simply like this:
A: ehem
M: ehem jugaaa. ono opo mas?
A: dmn?
(i didn't reply yet, he text me again)
A: boleh tak telfon ga?
M: boleh silahkan
Just like that, and less from 1 minute my phone rang and he call.
I'm happy, for sure. But i don't know what i feel for him. He's a playboy and has a girlfriend. But he's a nice and really funny guy. I can't stop laughing if he call :)
13.9.10
Kalo ada ramalan bintang yg bilang aries kesehatannya lagi baik, berarti ramalan itu SALAH BESAR
Kenapa?
Saya aries, tapi saya lagi sakit sekarang
Sakit pinggang -_-
Ga keren bener yah
Orang mah sakit pilek panas db tipes atau apa kek gitu yg bagusan
Ini ko saya sakit pinggang
Jadi berasa nenek nenek
Kata mama saya kurang minum makanya sakit
Yaiya sih wong saya sehari paling cuma minum segelas malah kadang2 ga minum
Trus ditambah kemaren saya ngedrop
Pilek, panas, kaki tangan dingin, tenggorokan sakit
Kata mama kalo saya udah kaya gtu berarti mau kena db
Fyi, saya kena db udah 2 kali -_-
Sampe trombosit saya dulu pernah tinggal 5000 hahaha
Tapi saya tetep bisa pecicilan padahal kata dokter trombosit segitu dikit lagi lewat -_-
Jadilah saya disuruh minum macem2
Kemaren saya ngabisin pocari 2liter, jus jambu yg kardus gede, indomilk yg kardus gede, sama bearbrand
Hasilnya? Alhamdulillah sembuh
Tapi saya harus bolak balik kamar mandi tiap 5menit sekali
Kebelet pipis!
Sakit pinggang saya juga ilang
Tapi kemaren doang huhu
Sekarang saya minumnya ga barbar lagi kaya kemaren, pinggangnya sakit lagi :(
Doain saya ya biar sembuh, nanti saya doain balik deh
Ditambah peluk cium dari saya biar tambah cepet sembuh :p
p.s : saya masih ngepost dari hp nih maafin yah kalo postingannya begenyeh -_-. makanya pasangin rumah saya internet dong! hahaha
Kenapa?
Saya aries, tapi saya lagi sakit sekarang
Sakit pinggang -_-
Ga keren bener yah
Orang mah sakit pilek panas db tipes atau apa kek gitu yg bagusan
Ini ko saya sakit pinggang
Jadi berasa nenek nenek
Kata mama saya kurang minum makanya sakit
Yaiya sih wong saya sehari paling cuma minum segelas malah kadang2 ga minum
Trus ditambah kemaren saya ngedrop
Pilek, panas, kaki tangan dingin, tenggorokan sakit
Kata mama kalo saya udah kaya gtu berarti mau kena db
Fyi, saya kena db udah 2 kali -_-
Sampe trombosit saya dulu pernah tinggal 5000 hahaha
Tapi saya tetep bisa pecicilan padahal kata dokter trombosit segitu dikit lagi lewat -_-
Jadilah saya disuruh minum macem2
Kemaren saya ngabisin pocari 2liter, jus jambu yg kardus gede, indomilk yg kardus gede, sama bearbrand
Hasilnya? Alhamdulillah sembuh
Tapi saya harus bolak balik kamar mandi tiap 5menit sekali
Kebelet pipis!
Sakit pinggang saya juga ilang
Tapi kemaren doang huhu
Sekarang saya minumnya ga barbar lagi kaya kemaren, pinggangnya sakit lagi :(
Doain saya ya biar sembuh, nanti saya doain balik deh
Ditambah peluk cium dari saya biar tambah cepet sembuh :p
p.s : saya masih ngepost dari hp nih maafin yah kalo postingannya begenyeh -_-. makanya pasangin rumah saya internet dong! hahaha
random
9.9.10
Hola! Udah lama yah saya ga nge post
Saya barusan abis ngeliat liat postingan saya yg dulu dulu
Kalo di liat liat lucu juga ya
Dulu saya cinta setengah mati (duileh cinte -_-) sama katakanlah si A
Trus ga brapa lama udah ganti jadi sama si B
Hahahahaha saya pengen ketawa jadinya
Manusia gampang banget berubah ya
Belum tentu yg dirasain hari ini bakal sama kaya yg dirasain besok
Tapi tenang aja B cinta saya ga berubah ko ke kamu -____-
Hahahaha becanda becanda
Tapi saya serius kalo saya bilang saya masih sayang kamu..
Ah udah udah nanti jadi galau hahaha
Well, internet rumah saya dicabut nih beberapa bulan terakhir ini
Tagihan listrik dan telfon rumah bengkak gara gara saya
Yaiyalah wong kalo main internet bisa dari pagi sampe pagi lagi
Dan itu bisa setiap hari lagi hahaha
Maaf yah pak, ma hehe cupmuah :p
Jadilah ini saya ngepost dari hp
Tangan saya keriting nih ngetik panjang banget huhu
Tapi gimana dong saya kangen ngeblog :D
Eh ngomong ngomong LIA saya hampir selesai loh hehe
Kemaren kemaren udah repot bikin essay sama presentasi
Nanti tinggal deg2an pas tesnya
Semoga lulus amiiiinnn
Ngomong ngomong lagi tentang LIA, kemaren saya kenalan sama si arab!!! Hihihi
Si arab yg mana? Yg ituloh yg udah sering liat liatan dari jaman hi 2 hahaha
Berkah ramadan deh tuh emang :p
Ramadan ya...
Besok lebaran loh...
Saya sih seneng besok dapet angpau
Tapi sedih deh karna udah ga ramadan lagi huhuhuhu
Bye ramadan,
See you next year yah
Tapi tahun depan saya udah di Bandung atau Jogja pas ketemu kamu
Amiiiiiinnn ya Allah
Happy ied, everyone
Forgive every mistakes i ever did yaa :D
Saya barusan abis ngeliat liat postingan saya yg dulu dulu
Kalo di liat liat lucu juga ya
Dulu saya cinta setengah mati (duileh cinte -_-) sama katakanlah si A
Trus ga brapa lama udah ganti jadi sama si B
Hahahahaha saya pengen ketawa jadinya
Manusia gampang banget berubah ya
Belum tentu yg dirasain hari ini bakal sama kaya yg dirasain besok
Tapi tenang aja B cinta saya ga berubah ko ke kamu -____-
Hahahaha becanda becanda
Tapi saya serius kalo saya bilang saya masih sayang kamu..
Ah udah udah nanti jadi galau hahaha
Well, internet rumah saya dicabut nih beberapa bulan terakhir ini
Tagihan listrik dan telfon rumah bengkak gara gara saya
Yaiyalah wong kalo main internet bisa dari pagi sampe pagi lagi
Dan itu bisa setiap hari lagi hahaha
Maaf yah pak, ma hehe cupmuah :p
Jadilah ini saya ngepost dari hp
Tangan saya keriting nih ngetik panjang banget huhu
Tapi gimana dong saya kangen ngeblog :D
Eh ngomong ngomong LIA saya hampir selesai loh hehe
Kemaren kemaren udah repot bikin essay sama presentasi
Nanti tinggal deg2an pas tesnya
Semoga lulus amiiiinnn
Ngomong ngomong lagi tentang LIA, kemaren saya kenalan sama si arab!!! Hihihi
Si arab yg mana? Yg ituloh yg udah sering liat liatan dari jaman hi 2 hahaha
Berkah ramadan deh tuh emang :p
Ramadan ya...
Besok lebaran loh...
Saya sih seneng besok dapet angpau
Tapi sedih deh karna udah ga ramadan lagi huhuhuhu
Bye ramadan,
See you next year yah
Tapi tahun depan saya udah di Bandung atau Jogja pas ketemu kamu
Amiiiiiinnn ya Allah
Happy ied, everyone
Forgive every mistakes i ever did yaa :D
well, this is me (based on quiz)
25.8.10
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
to have yours, click this
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
to have yours, click this
i hate my life, lately
i am being an anti-social person
i have a lazyness in the highest level for my lessons
i have an "affair" with a boy who has a girlfriend, again
hufla!
tell me what happiness is...
23.6.10
Madness as the time goes by will be fade
Unforgiven as the time goes by will be forgive
Hurt as the time goes by will be cure
And this is my very first time i pray for you after all that happened,
"god, please give him happiness, even that happiness is not with me"
I oftenly wondered it would be better if i never know you...
"our greatest happiness is found in the laughter, tears and joy we share with those we love" - Adele Basheev
"so this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be" - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
"happiness is having what you want and wanting what you have" - Josh Bullings
"remember, happiness is a way of travel not a destination" - Roy Goodman
Unforgiven as the time goes by will be forgive
Hurt as the time goes by will be cure
And this is my very first time i pray for you after all that happened,
"god, please give him happiness, even that happiness is not with me"
I oftenly wondered it would be better if i never know you...
"our greatest happiness is found in the laughter, tears and joy we share with those we love" - Adele Basheev
"so this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be" - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
"happiness is having what you want and wanting what you have" - Josh Bullings
"remember, happiness is a way of travel not a destination" - Roy Goodman
i'm waiting for someone like this...
?
25.5.10
i'd turn on my computer, opened opera and start to browsing
i'd click my facebook bookmark and wrote my password
i'd check my notification and there's many photo tags
i'd open that photos and make a right click on my mouse
and then i'd choose 'save image'
automatically it'll be saved in my own folder
i made a look in my own folder
it fills with..
his photos
and all of print screen's chat from the first time we knew each other until that "goodbye" thing
i read it one by one
i found one thing sweet and another bad
i feel like... oh my god
i think i have to make a new folder of mine.
i'd click my facebook bookmark and wrote my password
i'd check my notification and there's many photo tags
i'd open that photos and make a right click on my mouse
and then i'd choose 'save image'
automatically it'll be saved in my own folder
i made a look in my own folder
it fills with..
his photos
and all of print screen's chat from the first time we knew each other until that "goodbye" thing
i read it one by one
i found one thing sweet and another bad
i feel like... oh my god
i think i have to make a new folder of mine.
somehow i'm addicted with the rain...
18.5.10
Can you help me out? Can you lend me a hand?
It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out how to make it right
A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain for days and days, I feel it's gonna rain
I tried to figure out
I can understand what it means to be whole again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothing's real, nothing's making sense
It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out how to make it right
A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain for days and days, I feel it's gonna rain
I tried to figure out
I can understand what it means to be whole again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothing's real, nothing's making sense
A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this, rain like this
Fall down, wash away my yesterdays
Fall down, so let the rain fall down on me
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
Let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, I feel it's gonna rain
I've wondered if there's something more, something more
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this, rain like this
Fall down, wash away my yesterdays
Fall down, so let the rain fall down on me
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
Let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, I feel it's gonna rain
rain - creed
Dido - white flag
8.5.10
"White Flag"
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
here to listen to this song, Dido - white flag
:'(
this-is-the-first-time-i-really-hate-myself
because i realized that i'm still not over you
i hate when i really want to talk to you or chat you on facebook but i can't
i hate when i'm lying to myself
i hate this absurd feeling
but the most thing i hate is you
because you are a liar
and i know the truth
because i realized that i'm still not over you
i hate when i really want to talk to you or chat you on facebook but i can't
i hate when i'm lying to myself
i hate this absurd feeling
but the most thing i hate is you
because you are a liar
and i know the truth
&#&&%$&$^Y#&%
5.5.10
barusan, gue ditampar mama
oke terimakasih atas tamparannya ya mom
bahkan cuma gara gara hal sepele
tapi jadinya kaya gitu
sepele juga ko yang saya minta
anda menghargai saya
dan jangan pernah berpikiran negatif tentang saya jika anda ngga tau kebenarannya
nyatanya anda ngga tau saya
nyatanya bagi anda saya itu cuma yg jeleknya aja
lalu apa?
anda mau saya jadi bener bener jelek bukan cuma di mata anda?
maaf, saya belum terlalu bodoh buat jadi seperti itu
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya jadi anak baik buat anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan airmata saya di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan emosi di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan sakit hati sampe2 sakitnya terasa sampe ke ujung tangan?
mau anda saya jadi gimana?
anak yg kaya gimana?
bilang sama saya
dan tolong baik baik dibicarakannya kan bisa toh
ga perlu pake urat
atau menyepelekan
saya juga butuh rasa dihargai dari anda
dan satu yg mungkin anda lupa,
saya ini anak anda bukan boneka anda.
oke terimakasih atas tamparannya ya mom
bahkan cuma gara gara hal sepele
tapi jadinya kaya gitu
sepele juga ko yang saya minta
anda menghargai saya
dan jangan pernah berpikiran negatif tentang saya jika anda ngga tau kebenarannya
nyatanya anda ngga tau saya
nyatanya bagi anda saya itu cuma yg jeleknya aja
lalu apa?
anda mau saya jadi bener bener jelek bukan cuma di mata anda?
maaf, saya belum terlalu bodoh buat jadi seperti itu
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya jadi anak baik buat anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan airmata saya di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan emosi di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan sakit hati sampe2 sakitnya terasa sampe ke ujung tangan?
mau anda saya jadi gimana?
anak yg kaya gimana?
bilang sama saya
dan tolong baik baik dibicarakannya kan bisa toh
ga perlu pake urat
atau menyepelekan
saya juga butuh rasa dihargai dari anda
dan satu yg mungkin anda lupa,
saya ini anak anda bukan boneka anda.
this is for you
3.5.10
hey dude, i want to tell you a story
several days ago there's a boy who ask me to play "brother-sister"
i mean he ask me to be his sister
it's okay at the first
but later on he start to call me with "sayang"
i don't really mind until it start to bother me
he treat me like i am his grilfriend
he jealous with my bestfriend, he got angry if i'm not reply his messages
something like that
and he became more annoying
he said he likes me and loves me
the thing is he has a girlfriend!
and he push me to be his "girlfriend" and promise me that nobody know
i just said "it's too fast for you to say you loves me. you even don't know who am i"
but he push me again with say that he want me to let him loves me
i said "i don't want be that cruel to your girlfriend. i'm not the kind of wicked. i don't want to be wicked. i know what it's like to be a broken-hearted"
and then guess what? he mad at me
well i don't really care
so i decided to stay away
i don't want to broke their relationship
once again i don't want to be wicked with broke another person relationship.
he still messages me until now
but unfortunately i don't want to reply all of that
why? because he reminds me of you
the same mistake with you
and i almost be the girl who snatch him from his girlfriend
i don't want to be a kind of that person
i can imagine how hate his girlfriend with me if i snatch him from her side
i don't want it because i believe every good relationship start with a good thing too
if it start with a thing like that, how it be end up?
i know the end, one of them will left the couple for another one, again
it's futile.
but the good thing is, dude
it's happy to know that another people relatonship is still nice until now
i don't broke that
and nobody's hurt
several days ago there's a boy who ask me to play "brother-sister"
i mean he ask me to be his sister
it's okay at the first
but later on he start to call me with "sayang"
i don't really mind until it start to bother me
he treat me like i am his grilfriend
he jealous with my bestfriend, he got angry if i'm not reply his messages
something like that
and he became more annoying
he said he likes me and loves me
the thing is he has a girlfriend!
and he push me to be his "girlfriend" and promise me that nobody know
i just said "it's too fast for you to say you loves me. you even don't know who am i"
but he push me again with say that he want me to let him loves me
i said "i don't want be that cruel to your girlfriend. i'm not the kind of wicked. i don't want to be wicked. i know what it's like to be a broken-hearted"
and then guess what? he mad at me
well i don't really care
so i decided to stay away
i don't want to broke their relationship
once again i don't want to be wicked with broke another person relationship.
he still messages me until now
but unfortunately i don't want to reply all of that
why? because he reminds me of you
the same mistake with you
and i almost be the girl who snatch him from his girlfriend
i don't want to be a kind of that person
i can imagine how hate his girlfriend with me if i snatch him from her side
i don't want it because i believe every good relationship start with a good thing too
if it start with a thing like that, how it be end up?
i know the end, one of them will left the couple for another one, again
it's futile.
but the good thing is, dude
it's happy to know that another people relatonship is still nice until now
i don't broke that
and nobody's hurt
suddenly, i miss you
29.4.10
today, our memories is just like rewind
i still can remember all of that clearly in my head
like an old video that still in a good condition
how we first met,
every journey,
every yells,
every lies,
every sweet things,
your smile,
everything.
the pain, i still feel it
unfortunately always success to make me cry.
it's been a long time since the last time we communicate
but your words is still in my head
remember the way you yell at me and say that harsh words?
that's why i still can't open my heart for another one.
not because there's still you
it's simply because i'm not that suitable
you don't know what you do
you don't know what the effects
but, thankyou for being like that
i'm happy to ever meet you
I just want to stay together with you to...
25.4.10
to listen and share,
to make all be better,
to stand up with,
and to be a spirit...
that's all~
It's not that easy to let you go,
22.4.10
But the good thing is, i have moved on
Some people said,
"don't ever cry for someone who left you for someone else"
Another said,
"sometimes people leave because they really want to stay"
I said,
"it's fine if you want to cry because i know what is like to be a broken-hearted. But don't ever let them to make you drown too deep. Get up and change your world. Be reallistic, because you're not living on a dream"
Some people said,
"don't ever cry for someone who left you for someone else"
Another said,
"sometimes people leave because they really want to stay"
I said,
"it's fine if you want to cry because i know what is like to be a broken-hearted. But don't ever let them to make you drown too deep. Get up and change your world. Be reallistic, because you're not living on a dream"
10 things i love most
14.4.10
1. Hot air balloon
like this one, the classic type. with stripes and bright colour. lovely.
2. Rainbow
the rainbow will come after the rain, with bright colours in it. the good things will always come after the bad
3. Thunderstrom
wish i have a great power as a thunderstrom have
4. Candy
like this one, a circle. with bright colour and sweet taste. longlasting.
5. Stars
hey stars, i wish i could be...........
6. Barbie
the inspiration, the role model, the beautiful and the perfect one
7. Sky
above the sky there's still a sky
8. Jogja
i love this town very much. the people, the food, the weather, the crowd. a lot of unique things on it
9. Night
i always love the crowd of the nights on Jakarta
10. The lamps along the highway on night
i love it so much. when you are on the highway in the night there's many lamps along the way. for me, it's a comfortable thing
birthday girl :D
12.4.10
Happy sweet 17th birthday,
Malinda Dinna Auliya
06 - 04 - 2010
Keep rockin and have a great 17 years old!
-birthday girl :*
quick update, everyone :p
4.4.10
Well finally I can write again
The internet connection in my house has been broken since last week or 2 weeks ago.
Annoying. Grrr
Just quick update,
Someone had changed my facebook account's password and then deactivating that
Well I don't want to blame anyone even just one boy who know my password
A little bit annoying, really
But don't worry,
I have fixed that
And my facebook account officially reactivate again
So, poor you
The internet connection in my house has been broken since last week or 2 weeks ago.
Annoying. Grrr
Just quick update,
Someone had changed my facebook account's password and then deactivating that
Well I don't want to blame anyone even just one boy who know my password
A little bit annoying, really
But don't worry,
I have fixed that
And my facebook account officially reactivate again
So, poor you
pencerahan? hahaha :D
22.3.10
today, i realized something. that this life is not only about always being a kid. we grow up and grow up not only getting older.
makin gede, makin banyak yang dipikirin. masa depan, bentuknya kayak apa ya? gimana gue nanti kalo udah gede?
hidup bukan cuma buat seneng seneng. bukan cuma buat ngegaul sana sini. bukan cuma buat mikir mau jadi apa gede nanti. harus ada yg diubah, perubahan. harus berani ngambil langkah. tapi bukan berarti hidup harus selalu dibawa susah. bukan berarti hidup gaboleh ada senengnya. semuanya mesti seimbang. play hard work hard.
bapak bilang ga masalah dia mau kerja keras kayak apa asal anaknya bisa sekolah, bisa berhasil melebihi dia. bapak bilang dia mau gue jadi dokter baru sampingannya bisnis. dan gatau kenapa kata-katanya jadi semangat buat gue. gue emang dari awal gaada niat buat jadi dokter dan emang sekarang niat ke bisnis. tapi yang gue tau gue harus bisa bikin bapak bangga harus bisa bikin usaha bapak selama ini buat gue ga sia sia.
banyak masalah akhir akhir ini. nuntut gue buat mikir dewasa. yg gue sadarin gue emang belum cukup dewasa. gue emang belum bisa nyelesaiin masalah dengan baik. tapi yang gue tau bukan dengan sok dewasa kita bisa nyelesain masalah.
semua ada jalannya. kalo kita gagal di satu jalan masih banyak jalan yang lainnya. kalo kita gabisa di satu jalan kita bisa di jalan lain. banyak jalan menuju roma kan? jadi buat apa kita ngoyo mesti jadi ini mesti itu padahal masih banyak cara lain buat nyampe ke tujuan yg sama.
beberapa bulan terakhir gue banyak belajar. belajar jadi lebih dewasa, belajar menganalisis kepribadian orang, belajar menghargai, dan belajar mengerti orang. i learn about being alone without being lonely and about being lonely without losing my mind. semua ada jalannya. yg kita bisa selain berusaha ya cuma pasrah sama Allah. dia tau yg terbaik buat kita.
gue juga belajar kalo sesuatu yg kita pengen belum tentu sesuatu yg kita butuh. dan gue sangat sangat sadar akan hal itu sekarang. gue pengen elo tapi gue sadar gue ga butuh butuh elo banget. masih banyak orang disini yg lebih gue butuhin. jadi kenapa mesti ngoyo. setiap pertemuan pasti ada akhirnya kan? dan mungkin disinilah akhirnya. who know kalo kita bakal ketemu lagi. 5 tahun lagi? atau 10 tahun lagi? tapi yg gue tau gue mau pas gue ketemu lo, lo bakal liat gue adalah orang yg berbeda. gue bukan lagi malinda yg sekarang yg masih anak kecil. gue mau lo liat gue udah jadi orang dewasa berpendidikan dan sukses. dan pantas.
udah gede semuanya harus serba dipikirin. dikit lagi juga gue 17 tahun. ga terasa ya. udah harus tambah dewasa. harus bisa banggain orang tua. mulai semuanya dengan yg baru. lupain yg lama. harus jadi pribadi yg baru. gue bisa, pasti bisa.
orang baik bakal dibales baik. jadi kenapa engga kita usaha baik sama semua orang. semuanya ada balesannya ko. live righteously aja dengan sendirinya everything will be alright :)
i love this song. inspiring :)
maliq n d'essentials - buka mata, hati, telinga
here is the lyric :)
makin gede, makin banyak yang dipikirin. masa depan, bentuknya kayak apa ya? gimana gue nanti kalo udah gede?
hidup bukan cuma buat seneng seneng. bukan cuma buat ngegaul sana sini. bukan cuma buat mikir mau jadi apa gede nanti. harus ada yg diubah, perubahan. harus berani ngambil langkah. tapi bukan berarti hidup harus selalu dibawa susah. bukan berarti hidup gaboleh ada senengnya. semuanya mesti seimbang. play hard work hard.
bapak bilang ga masalah dia mau kerja keras kayak apa asal anaknya bisa sekolah, bisa berhasil melebihi dia. bapak bilang dia mau gue jadi dokter baru sampingannya bisnis. dan gatau kenapa kata-katanya jadi semangat buat gue. gue emang dari awal gaada niat buat jadi dokter dan emang sekarang niat ke bisnis. tapi yang gue tau gue harus bisa bikin bapak bangga harus bisa bikin usaha bapak selama ini buat gue ga sia sia.
banyak masalah akhir akhir ini. nuntut gue buat mikir dewasa. yg gue sadarin gue emang belum cukup dewasa. gue emang belum bisa nyelesaiin masalah dengan baik. tapi yang gue tau bukan dengan sok dewasa kita bisa nyelesain masalah.
semua ada jalannya. kalo kita gagal di satu jalan masih banyak jalan yang lainnya. kalo kita gabisa di satu jalan kita bisa di jalan lain. banyak jalan menuju roma kan? jadi buat apa kita ngoyo mesti jadi ini mesti itu padahal masih banyak cara lain buat nyampe ke tujuan yg sama.
beberapa bulan terakhir gue banyak belajar. belajar jadi lebih dewasa, belajar menganalisis kepribadian orang, belajar menghargai, dan belajar mengerti orang. i learn about being alone without being lonely and about being lonely without losing my mind. semua ada jalannya. yg kita bisa selain berusaha ya cuma pasrah sama Allah. dia tau yg terbaik buat kita.
gue juga belajar kalo sesuatu yg kita pengen belum tentu sesuatu yg kita butuh. dan gue sangat sangat sadar akan hal itu sekarang. gue pengen elo tapi gue sadar gue ga butuh butuh elo banget. masih banyak orang disini yg lebih gue butuhin. jadi kenapa mesti ngoyo. setiap pertemuan pasti ada akhirnya kan? dan mungkin disinilah akhirnya. who know kalo kita bakal ketemu lagi. 5 tahun lagi? atau 10 tahun lagi? tapi yg gue tau gue mau pas gue ketemu lo, lo bakal liat gue adalah orang yg berbeda. gue bukan lagi malinda yg sekarang yg masih anak kecil. gue mau lo liat gue udah jadi orang dewasa berpendidikan dan sukses. dan pantas.
udah gede semuanya harus serba dipikirin. dikit lagi juga gue 17 tahun. ga terasa ya. udah harus tambah dewasa. harus bisa banggain orang tua. mulai semuanya dengan yg baru. lupain yg lama. harus jadi pribadi yg baru. gue bisa, pasti bisa.
orang baik bakal dibales baik. jadi kenapa engga kita usaha baik sama semua orang. semuanya ada balesannya ko. live righteously aja dengan sendirinya everything will be alright :)
i love this song. inspiring :)
maliq n d'essentials - buka mata, hati, telinga
here is the lyric :)
Satu cerita tentang manusia
Coba 'tuk memahami arti cinta
Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya
Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia
Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga
Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang 'kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan
Coba 'tuk memahami arti cinta
Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya
Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia
Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga
Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang 'kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan
Buka mata hati telinga
Buka mata hati telinga
Coba kau buka mata hati telinga
Mata hati telinga
Buka mata hati telinga
Coba kau buka mata hati telinga
Mata hati telinga
lately, there's so much smile and laugh around me. helps me to be better and better. i love you world :D
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20.3.10
sometimes when you take a look to someone you can see that she's ok, but come closer, if you see deep down to her eyes don't you still think that she's ok?
i'm a master in make a fake
why?
i just don't want you to know who am i
what i think, what i feel
because not every problem can share it to you
because the real is i'm not that extrovert
because there's a fun thing to make you guess the real me
wtf
live a simple life, i wish
open your eyes
you'll se there's something more important to concern about
not just love
but why love always success to make you fall?
in every way, you do it with love
you do it with all of your heart
so when this heart has broken, who will responsible?
can you tell me what happiness is?
like a dream, i feel it when i fall asleep
but when i wake up?
i don't know where is it going
can you show me the way to go there?
i'm getting a little bit tired to through this
i'm a master in make a fake
why?
i just don't want you to know who am i
what i think, what i feel
because not every problem can share it to you
because the real is i'm not that extrovert
because there's a fun thing to make you guess the real me
wtf
live a simple life, i wish
open your eyes
you'll se there's something more important to concern about
not just love
but why love always success to make you fall?
in every way, you do it with love
you do it with all of your heart
so when this heart has broken, who will responsible?
can you tell me what happiness is?
like a dream, i feel it when i fall asleep
but when i wake up?
i don't know where is it going
can you show me the way to go there?
i'm getting a little bit tired to through this
-,-
20.2.10
kemaren atau berapa hari yang lalu ada percakapan di rumah gue yang super annoying banget deh atau lebih tepatnya kaka gue yang annoying grrr.
gue : " mom, inda nanti mau jadi pramugari aja deh. lulus sma langsung masuk sekolah pramugari. nanti kerjanya enak trus.......... (bla bla bla sampe panjang lebar gue ngomong)"
(kaka gue tiba tiba nyamber)
kaka gue : " hahaha (ketawa ngejek) mau jadi pramugari? ga salah? lo udah jelek, item, pendek, gendut mana bisa jadi pramugari hahaha"
gue : (dokem gabisa ngomong apa apa zz)
segitu jeleknyakah gue?????????? hhhhhhhhh
gue : " mom, inda nanti mau jadi pramugari aja deh. lulus sma langsung masuk sekolah pramugari. nanti kerjanya enak trus.......... (bla bla bla sampe panjang lebar gue ngomong)"
(kaka gue tiba tiba nyamber)
kaka gue : " hahaha (ketawa ngejek) mau jadi pramugari? ga salah? lo udah jelek, item, pendek, gendut mana bisa jadi pramugari hahaha"
gue : (dokem gabisa ngomong apa apa zz)
segitu jeleknyakah gue?????????? hhhhhhhhh
sooooooooo what's going on?
16.2.10
well, if you ask me what i'm feeling, surely i'm sad but i'm not broken. i'm not hurt, i just get a little dissapointed.
because of what you did to me, i realized that many friends of mine are loved me. and i know their love will help me to be stronger.
i still crying and miss you, and wish you were here. i keep on asking "when you'll come to me and explain what happened to us in front of my face?"
i don't know what is your answer, but.. you know what, the sky is still blue without you
because of what you did to me, i realized that many friends of mine are loved me. and i know their love will help me to be stronger.
i still crying and miss you, and wish you were here. i keep on asking "when you'll come to me and explain what happened to us in front of my face?"
i don't know what is your answer, but.. you know what, the sky is still blue without you
even i asked one of my friend to painted it for me. he made one big balloon with a girl inside, he said it was me! with blue sky and another little balloon around. it's a nice picture, i though. and i dream to have a balloon one day wihihihihi.
okaaaay i'm tired. see you later. wish everything will be alright ya! xoxo :D
i love you :(
12.2.10
one day, when it is all over and everything back fine again and you still remember me, come and call me, and i will say,
"welcome back, dear. i love you"
rain
6.2.10
i love rain
with the storm
the cold
the wet
and the rainbow after it
someone will come after that rain
bring me the rainbow
the flowers
the sun
pick me up and say
rain will always stop and rainbow will come
don't sad
cause even in your hardest day
there's always a good thing after it
dream on
5.2.10
lately, i like to sing this song. romantic. makes me wish someday there is someone who will sing this for me :)
here it is, hellogoodbye - oh it is love
here it is, hellogoodbye - oh it is love
Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes upon yours
Thinking oh, is it love?
Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?
From the first time I set my eyes upon yours
Thinking oh, is it love?
Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?
life is like a roller-coaster this week
people get annoyed
and i had a crowd in my head
fell asleep with tears
and woke up in the middle of night because of nightmare
no one i can talk with
even i want to
i need arms to hold, now
and please don't ask about what happened
just give me a big hug
it's more than enough
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!
2.1.10
resolution for 2010:
1. must have items: appearance, brain, social
2. being a good girl
3. FREEDOM
tahun 2010 pokonya udah niat mau jadi anak baik baik. ga ada pulang malem, ga ada asep asep gajelas, nilai mesti naik, mesti jadi anak ipa beneran (beneran maksudnya yaa you know lah kan ya tipe tipe anak ipa yang doyan belajar, oh my god!), mesti jadi anak rajin dan berbakti pada orangtua deh pokonya. hhhhh bisa pasti bisa -_-
taun baru kemaren i went to Serang,Banten. yaampun beneran deh disana ga ada apa apa. bahkan Circle K pun gaada! yaampuuuun. sampe sampe gue homesick disana kangen Jakarta padahal disana juga cuma sehari! ckckck hebatnya Jakarta ye kan hahaha.
pas jalan pulang lewat tol malem malem kan. ngeliat lampu lampu jalan. inget tito. kangeeeeeeeeeeeennnn banget. kapan bisa ketemu ya? hahahaha. rasanya udah pengen ke tebet ke rumahnya pengen ketemu. hahahaha nekat gue kalo sampe kaya gitu.
dan sekarang orangnya lagi marah deh sama gue. hem hem gatau kenapa gue selalu takut setiap dia marah. gue selalu merasa bersalah setiap gue gabisa ngerti dia setiap gue egois ke dia setiap gue bikin dia marah. dia gitu juga ga ya ke gue? hahahaha gapenting mikirin perasaan gue yang penting itu dia titik gapake koma
oke new year, new me. hope everything will be better than last year. i love you world, i love you tito
1. must have items: appearance, brain, social
2. being a good girl
3. FREEDOM
tahun 2010 pokonya udah niat mau jadi anak baik baik. ga ada pulang malem, ga ada asep asep gajelas, nilai mesti naik, mesti jadi anak ipa beneran (beneran maksudnya yaa you know lah kan ya tipe tipe anak ipa yang doyan belajar, oh my god!), mesti jadi anak rajin dan berbakti pada orangtua deh pokonya. hhhhh bisa pasti bisa -_-
taun baru kemaren i went to Serang,Banten. yaampun beneran deh disana ga ada apa apa. bahkan Circle K pun gaada! yaampuuuun. sampe sampe gue homesick disana kangen Jakarta padahal disana juga cuma sehari! ckckck hebatnya Jakarta ye kan hahaha.
pas jalan pulang lewat tol malem malem kan. ngeliat lampu lampu jalan. inget tito. kangeeeeeeeeeeeennnn banget. kapan bisa ketemu ya? hahahaha. rasanya udah pengen ke tebet ke rumahnya pengen ketemu. hahahaha nekat gue kalo sampe kaya gitu.
dan sekarang orangnya lagi marah deh sama gue. hem hem gatau kenapa gue selalu takut setiap dia marah. gue selalu merasa bersalah setiap gue gabisa ngerti dia setiap gue egois ke dia setiap gue bikin dia marah. dia gitu juga ga ya ke gue? hahahaha gapenting mikirin perasaan gue yang penting itu dia titik gapake koma
oke new year, new me. hope everything will be better than last year. i love you world, i love you tito
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hey folks, it's me!
- malinda dinna
- jakarta, Indonesia
- i love when people look at me and say "hey, you are interesting". i am sensitive and temperamental. i am moody and nerd. so, can you found the good sides of me?