atomic

"Like the atom theory, we have to let go of something or someone to keep our life balance..."

atomic

"Like the atom theory, we have to let go of something or someone to keep our life balance..."

atomic

"Like the atom theory, we have to let go of something or someone to keep our life balance..."

jejaring sosial

Sejak keputusanmu untuk pergi sampai sekarang, saya bahkan ga berani buka twitter. Saya takut kalo kalo nanti ngeliat kamu mention-mentionan sama cewek lain. Lebih baik ga tau kan daripada sakit hati? Yayaya...

sometimes those wise words are having they right

what i have to say to describe the life lately?

all messed up.

broken relationshit, boyfriend that cheating...

ah more than just cheating, i say.

do you know how it feels when your loveliest person is getting married with another girl?

sad, mad, broken heart, desperate...

and maybe the biggest feeling is disappointed.

i feel it now, even my boy not really getting married but the problem between is equal.

no way for us to be together any ever more.

the only reason i still stand with him right now is because...

you know, it's never ever be easy to let go of someone that you know like forever.

4 years isn't a short time

besides, being best friend with him is the best way i could ever think.

simply because i need him, he need me.

and no matter how bad is him, that's him.

who am i to ask him to change.

every shit happened for a reason.

another wise word that proving its right.

even the reason's not coming up to me yet.

someday it will.

~

he stabbed me from my back for like a million times,

and he blame me for that for like a million times, too.

home

Bahkan ketika menangis ga membuat saya merasakan apa apa

ketika air mata jatuh bukan lagi disaat saya merasakan sakit

ketika semua yg saya lakukan seperti tidak nyata

ketika semua perasaan hilang dan saya tidak bisa merasakan apapun

tidak sakit, tidak senang

ketika yg saya inginkan hanya kembali ke rumah

atau sekedar menemukan "rumah".

blow up

life isn't get better at any cost. this world is turn me drown lately. tasks that i didn't finish yet, project that upcoming in the next few week, love story...... *sigh*
you know i need rest. or maybe i need someone to cover me. seems like i'm tired to keep my mask on. i need refresh. i need maybe a vacation to some-place-that-strange-and-i'm-not-visit-that-yet




"When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning. You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you're gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Like the sun rises and sets with you."

- Mike O' Donnel (17 Again )

i'm done writing.

:'

"...I'm lost without you.

 can't help myself........."

a letter to say

so dear, it's about 3 years and going to 4 we're together.

i know i'd been a real bastard to waste you,

to waste things around us,

to waste the love between us.

i know it will going to be end someday.

but i never want to be end like this.

you just a type of boy that i can't life without.

and look at us now, we're apart.

i'm sorry.

i know it's not enough.

i'm searching for something more than saying sorry.

if it's can make you be fine.

for every pray that there's you in it.

for every night i say it to God.

for every love that we shared.

for every memories that we have.

i'm sure it's not a thing that we easily forget.

together we lives,

we lived,

we loved.

love you, dearest.

just another script, i guess

                              SUMMER
                    This thing. This whatever it is.
                    You and me. Do you think this is

                    normal?
          
                              TOM
                    I don't know. Who cares about
                    normal?! I'm happy. Aren't you
                    happy?
          
                                                          
                              SUMMER
                    You're happy?
          
                              TOM
                    You're not?

- 500 days of Summer