Jakarta!

22.6.11
Jadi, inilah hasil perburuan saya hari ini.
Akhirnya saya tau harus jawab apa setiap kamu nanya "mau pergi kemana?"
Saya mau pergi, keliling Jakarta.
Sama kamu.

Saya punya banyak tempat yang mau saya datengin.
Ga melulu tentang pantai.
Karna ternyata saya lebih tertarik pergi ke museum layang-layang sama kamu.
Kamu tau ga museum layang-layang?
Kalo engga, pergi sama saya yuk.

Saya punya segudang tempat yg mau saya datengin.
Tapi jangan anggep saya aneh ya.
Karna saya lebih tertarik pergi ke museum daripada ke mall.
Lebih tertarik ngeliat bintang di Taman Ismail Marzuki daripada nonton film di bioskop.
Lebih tertarik nyoba makanan pinggir jalan daripada restoran mahal.

Ah saya mah ga elit.
Saya cuma gasuka matahari siang.
Nanti tambah item dong.
Dan gasuka rambut saya berantakan.
Kamu tau kan?


Jadi kapan dong pergi sama saya?
Jangan lupa bawa kamera ya.
Nanti saya ajak keliling Jakarta.
Yang ternyata ga melulu tentang mall dan hedonista.

hey there, fat bear

"Dulu kalau aku tak begitu, kini bagaimana aku?
Dulu kalau aku tak disitu, kini dimana aku?
Kini kalau aku begini, kelak bagaimana aku?
Kini kalau aku disini, kelak dimana aku?

Tak tau dulu atau kelak
Cuma tau kini aku begini
Cuma tau kini aku disini
Dan kini aku melihatmu."



- Summer in Seoul, Ilana Tan

(500) days of summer

2.6.11
- (500) Days of Summer




"This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen, grew up believing that he’d never truly be happy until the day he met the one. The girl, Summer Finn, did not share this belief. You should know up front this is not a love story."



Summer: I love The Smiths.
Tom: [removing his headphones] Sorry?
Summer: I said I love The Smiths. You–you have a good taste in music.
Tom: You like The Smiths?
Summer: Yeah. “To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die.” I love ‘em.
[Summer steps off the elevator]
Tom: Holy shit.




Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

.......

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

.......

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?
[she scoffs]
Tom: What?
Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?
Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.



Tom: It's official. I'm in love with Summer. 




Tom: I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks her lips before she talks. I love her heart-shaped birthmark on her neck. I love it when she sleeps.

.......

Tom: I love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it.





"As he listened, Tom began to realize that these stories weren't routinely told. These were stories one had to earn. He could feel the wall coming down. He wondered if anyone else had made it this far. Which is why the next six words changed everything." 

.......

Summer: I've never told anybody that before. 
Tom: I guess I'm not just anybody.




Summer: You always wanted to write greeting cards?
Tom: No, I don’t even want to do it now.
Summer: Well you should do something else then.
Tom: Yeah. I studied to be an architect, actually.
Summer: You did that’s cool. What happened there?
Tom: Didn’t work out. I needed a job and here we are.



Tom: Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?



Tom: Nobody loves Ringo Starr.
Summer: That's what I love about him.
 



Tom: Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine. I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not gonna wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: And I can't give you that. Nobody can.




Summer: We're just friends.
Tom: No! Don't pull that with me! Kissing in the copy room? Holding hands in IKEA? Shower sex? Come on! Friends my balls!



Tom: What happened? Why - why didn't they work out?
Summer: What always happens. Life.





Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew. 
Tom: Knew what? 
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

.......

Tom: You don't want to be named as anybody's girlfriend, and now you're someone's wife?
Summer: Well, you know, I guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and... now he's my husband. 
Tom: Yeah. And... so?
Summer: So, what if I'd gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I'd gotten there 10 minutes later? It was - it was meant to be. And... I just kept thinking... Tom was right.
Tom: No.
Summer: Yeah, I did.
[laughs]
Summer: I did. It just wasn't me that you were right about.




"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin and they end with no lasting memory made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life."



Tom: [the girl at the job interview agrees to meet Tom for coffee afterward] We'll figure it out. My name's Tom.
Girl at Interview: [Last lines of the film] Nice to meet you.
[Shakes his hand]
Girl at interview: I'm Autumn.
[Tom looks at the camera in amazement. Film cuts to a title card with a "1" indicating the first day of Tom's relationship with Autumn]


- End





ah, it's kinda messed me up

Loving you is the biggest risk I've ever take. Got a deep hurt all around my heart. I'm entering your heart and finally found something, someone. Then i ask, "who's that girl who standing right next to me and fill your heart too?". Realize something and with a hurry I close your heart's door again. So then I just can cry. And thinking about everything about us. I never be a player since we've start being together. I never did, then why don't you do the same?. A man can never love two women at the same time. Then why you can?