?

i'd turn on my computer, opened opera and start to browsing
i'd click my facebook bookmark and wrote my password
i'd check my notification and there's many photo tags
i'd open that photos and make a right click on my mouse
and then i'd choose 'save image'
automatically it'll be saved in my own folder
i made a look in my own folder
it fills with..
his photos
and all of print screen's chat from the first time we knew each other until that "goodbye" thing
i read it one by one
i found one thing sweet and another bad
i feel like... oh my god
i think i have to make a new folder of mine.

somehow i'm addicted with the rain...

Can you help me out? Can you lend me a hand?
It's safe to say that I'm stuck again
Trapped between this life and the light
I just can't figure out how to make it right

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
With every tomorrow comes another life
I feel it's gonna rain for days and days, I feel it's gonna rain

I tried to figure out
I can understand what it means to be whole again
Trapped between the truth and the consequence
Nothing's real, nothing's making sense

A thousand times before
I've wondered if there's something more, something more

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
So let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this, rain like this

Fall down, wash away my yesterdays
Fall down, so let the rain fall down on me

I feel it's gonna rain like this for days
Let it rain down and wash everything away
I hope that tomorrow the sun will shine
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, rain like this
I feel it's gonna rain like this, I feel it's gonna rain

rain - creed 

 

Dido - white flag

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that. 
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that? 

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still 
 I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on.... 

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

 here to listen to this song,  Dido - white flag 

:'(

this-is-the-first-time-i-really-hate-myself
because i realized that i'm still not over you
i hate when i really want to talk to you or chat you on facebook but i can't
i hate when i'm lying to myself
i hate this absurd feeling
but the most thing i hate is you
because you are a liar
and i know the truth 

&#&&%$&$^Y#&%

barusan, gue ditampar mama
oke terimakasih atas tamparannya ya mom
bahkan cuma gara gara hal sepele
tapi jadinya kaya gitu
sepele juga ko yang saya minta
anda menghargai saya
dan jangan pernah berpikiran negatif tentang saya jika anda ngga tau kebenarannya
nyatanya anda ngga tau saya
nyatanya bagi anda saya itu cuma yg jeleknya aja
lalu apa?
anda mau saya jadi bener bener jelek bukan cuma di mata anda?
maaf, saya belum terlalu bodoh buat jadi seperti itu
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya jadi anak baik buat anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan airmata saya di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan emosi di depan anda?
anda tau ga seberapa usaha saya nahan sakit hati sampe2 sakitnya terasa sampe ke ujung tangan?
mau anda saya jadi gimana?
anak yg kaya gimana?
bilang sama saya
dan tolong baik baik dibicarakannya kan bisa toh
ga perlu pake urat
atau menyepelekan
saya juga butuh rasa dihargai dari anda
dan satu yg mungkin anda lupa,
saya ini anak anda bukan boneka anda.

this is for you

hey dude, i want to tell you a story
several days ago there's a boy who ask me to play "brother-sister"
i mean he ask me to be his sister
it's okay at the first
but later on he start to call me with "sayang"
i don't really mind until it start to bother me
he treat me like i am his grilfriend
he jealous with my bestfriend, he got angry if i'm not reply his messages
something like that
and he became more annoying
he said he likes me and loves me
the thing is he has a girlfriend!
and he push me to be his "girlfriend" and promise me that nobody know
i just said "it's too fast for you to say you loves me. you even don't know who am i"
but he push me again with say that he want me to let him loves me
i said "i don't want be that cruel to your girlfriend. i'm not the kind of wicked. i don't want to be wicked. i know what it's like to be a broken-hearted"
and then guess what? he mad at me
well i don't really care
so i decided to stay away
i don't want to broke their relationship
once again i don't want to be wicked with broke another person relationship.
he still messages me until now
but unfortunately i don't want to reply all of that
why? because he reminds me of you
the same mistake with you
and i almost be the girl who snatch him from his girlfriend
i don't want to be a kind of that person
i can imagine how hate his girlfriend with me if i snatch him from her side
i don't want it because i believe every good relationship start with a good thing too
if it start with a thing like that, how it be end up?
i know the end, one of them will left the couple for another one, again
it's futile.
but the good thing is, dude
it's happy to know that another people relatonship is still nice until now
i don't broke that
and nobody's hurt

may would be nice :D

 

 thanks god, i'm right on my way to go to my rainbow