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i know i'm not good enough,
i know i'm not special, 
but you are good enough,
but you are special.

your world

if i'm the one that you are choose, then why it's so hard for me to be a part in your world?

your world is like a place that i can't go there. too much different on it with mine. then why i still here to you?

i have no bravery to say this

it's simply like when you were right and then she blamed you

she said you are a bad girl when you tried to be a good girl

and then guess what,

you decided to be a real bad girl.

ask to her:

can you appreciate me?

say thanks to me?

proud of me?

being a good girl is never easy

i do try, for you

good in every aspect in my life

maybe, it's still not enough

but be calm, i have so much work to do to fix that

and then please realize that i am a good girl

i love you

i'll do anything, mom

for what happened few days ago

:)

nothing need to scared, tito.

i'm here

will never go away

as my promise to you

i will wait

as long as you want

don't be afraid

it's not your fault and not me

it's all because

 you and me

fell in love

not in the right time and the right condition 

be calm

i don't want to disturb you

be focus

faster is better

you and me

like a balloon

you want me to keep this balloon

so it will never go

i want you to hold this balloon

because it's too weak if you just keep it

 

don't let this balloon fly away

she need your hands to catch her

she need your arms to hold her

she need a man to protect her

don't be scared

i will go no where

everytime you need me

i'm here

  

Saturday, 17-10-2009

hari sabtu aku jalan lagi loooooh sama mas tito hihihi,

dia nyampe rumah jam 8 kurang seperempat padahal gue baru bangun jam 8 kurang 20 -_- yaudah itu orang nunggu deh sampe jam 9an hahahaha maaf yaaa. trus abis itu nyokap berisiiiik banget minta dikenalin sama tito. yaudah deh akhirnya si tito turun dulu trus salim baru kita jalan hahaha dasar emak emak emang centil ih.

terus udah di jalan nih udah di tol kan gue laper ya ditanyain mau makan apa. gue bilang gue ngidam bubur ayam hahahaha udah kaya orang hamil ye. trus yaudah akhirnya kita keluar tol nyari tukang bubur hahaha sumpah itu ngabis ngabisin duit buat tol aja ya. bingung kan tuh di jalan nyari tukang bubur dimana yaudah kita ke sunan giri deh. muter muteeeeerrr salah jalan lewat utan kayu utara akhirnya sampe deh di sunan giri (perasaan kalo jalan sama kamu kita muter muter nyari jalan mulu ya to hahahaha)

udah makan segala macem udah jam sebelas kan tuh bingung juga mau kmana trus si tito ngajak ke moi mau nonton cloudy with a chance of meatball haha bagus to filmnya like this deeeh beneran hihi (yaah secara i love cartoon so much!). nonton 3D kan ya tiketnya mahal deh 70ribu zzzzzzzzzz. udah deeeeh nonton deh kitaaaa. sedikit norak sih tapi baru sekali itu gue nonton 3D di bioskop wehehehehe

abis nonton selesai jam 3 tapi kita di parkiran dulu udah kaya apatau ya di mobil sampe jam 5 ckck. baru deh pulang soalnya takut kemaleman nih si mas titonya nanti dicariin hihihi (ko jadi kaya anak mami ya kamu? haha). sampe deket rumah mampir dulu ke indomaret gara gara maagnya dia kambuh. udah tuh beli beli trus dia minum obat trus belom pergi kan dari situ masih di mobil eeeeeehhhh tau tau dari yang tadinya teraaaaaang (kita parkir dibawah lampu) jadi gelap semuanya. knapa? mati lampu satu komplek gue hahaha. yaudah trus gajadi pulang deh. kita di mobil deh nungguin nyala lagi lampunya (akhirnya jadi macar juga kita ye bos malem minggu wehehehe)

teruuuuuus janji kelingking lagi. mas tito bilang dia takut gue pergi. hahahaha tenang mas emang aku mau pergi kemana deh. dia bilang dia kesangkut sama gue kepelet beneran hahaha. bagus bagus brarti ga siasia gue pasang pelet sepuluh ye ga hahaha. tenang aja kan aku udah janji nunggu ya aku nunggu lah. tepatin dulu tuh janji sama ibu. baru deh bisa ada... ehem status hahahaha. serius ga sabar nunggunya

kalo beneran bisa jadi guling jadi guling deh gue biar bisa dibawa pulang hahahahaha. kangen kamu to. beneran deh rasanya ga cukup kalo cuma sminggu skali ketemunya heeeeemmm

ancol, Sunday 11-10-2009

halooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

akhirnya bisa online lagi. brapa hari ya internet gue rusak. aneh lagi rusaknya. masa buka wlm bisa tapi buka facebook dan lainlainnya gabisa. apa maunya coba deeeeh -____-

hari minggu kemaren akhirnya gue ketemu tito hihi. seneng deh ah. tito jemput kerumah jam 10 trus kita jalan jalan

tito: nda kita mau kemana nih?
gue: kemana ya to terserah kamu deh
tito: yeh gimana sih. mau kemana nih?
gue: heeeemm.....
tito: kemana dul?
gue: ancol!
tito: dih mau ngapain ke ancol?
gue: beli layangan! hehehehe
tito: yee dasar bocah kamu. serius?
gue: iyaaaaaaaa hehehe
tito: yaudah yuuuuuk deh

laluuuuuu jalan lah kita ke ancol. di jalan pas udah di daerah pancoran gue minta kesekolahnya dulu di SMA 78. yaudah akhirnya kita keluar tol terus luruuuus belok kanan lurus lagi terus lupa jalannya -_- akhirnya sampe deh disekolahnyaaaa. masa ya itu sekolah gede banget deh. berapa kalinya 71 tau dah iiiiih.

terus abis dari sekolahnya kita masuk tol lagi sampeeeeeee ancol.di ancol muter muter bingung mau ngapain. akhirnya parkir di deket gelanggang samudra. dan karna niat gue ke ancol emang cuma mau beli layangan, kita di mobil doang deh dari jam 12an sampe jam brapa tebaaaaaaaak? yak sampe jam 6an sore hahahahaha.

di mobil udah kaya orang goblok kan. becanda segala macem diomongin. dari yang gapenting sampe yang penting hehehe. ngerjain tes psikotesnya dia. ngutak ngatik hp dia. ga kerasa banget deh tiba tiba udah sore hahaha.

cerita yang paling gue inget tuh pas dia cerita dia nembak cewek. sumpah ini cowok emang romantis apa kelewat baik gue gatau ya hahaha. masa nembak cewek aja dia sampe nyewa satu restoran di sky dinning, dan dibikin jadi candle light dinner! lampu restoran dibikin jadi gelap gitu trus ada lilin sama bunga. yaampuuuun langsung speechless deh itu dengernya. NGIRI!!! hahahahaha.

dan akhirnya dia bilang, "kamu tungguin aku ya, aku sayang kamu"
heeeeeeeeeeeeeemmmm iyalah aku nunggu kamu. orang aku juga sayang ko hihi kali ini serius, aku gamau main main lagi

  

i just need you to say,

 "yes, i want you to wait for me" 

and then i'll wait as long as you want

well, ini yang gue lakuin kalo disekolah. ngecek hp setiap 5 menit sekali. ada sms dari dia apa engga. udah kaya apatau ya hahaha. untungnya ga bener bener lost contact. jadi gue ga seratus persen kaya orang bego. udah di sekolah kerjaannya diem (pik), di tempat les juga diem (pik lagi) hahahaha. kelamaan lu vakumnya -_-

mas tito, cepet balik dong aku kangen

-bos kecil 

"Janarto Wicaksono"

hem jowo banget ya namanya hahahahaha. orangnya tingginya setinggi gue tinggian dikit (hihi), rambutnya rada gondrong, pake beheeeeel warna biru, item manis, pinteeeeeeeeeeerrr banget (dia anak ipa, ipa beneran, bukan ipa gadungan hehe), baik banget, dewasa banget, punya lesung pipi juga hehehe.

ih kangen banget sama kamuuuuuuu mas tito :(

dan sekarang gue bakal ditinggal sama dia kira kira 3 sampe 4 bulan -____________-

okedeh selamat belajar ya mas tito. semoga msuk itb hahaha. 3 bulan lagi inget balik ke gue ya awas lo kalo engga ntar gue cubit hahahahaha (eh ini serius loh mas tito).

-bos kecil

chit chat

hola people! nice to meet you again. it's been about three or four days since the last post i wrote. something happened with my account in facebook for last three days. someone change the password and remove some of my friends. including my ex. then as you guess, he was going mad. unfortunately until now. besides i was said the truth in the name of Allah, my lord, he still not believed in me. it makes me soooo lazy to turn on my computer and write something.

but my facebook was repaired and it back as usual, thanks for tito who repaired this.

on tuesday, i met tito for the first time. he's a nice boy like i thought. enough funny as we were at the first met. and then what else? yes, now he is a little bit in the bad mood. it makes me in the bad mood too -_-

hell done, see ya!

p.s i will tell you about tito on the next post!

ugly - sugababes

"people are all the same, if i'm ugly then so are you"

sugababes - ugly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLrFOmAbCMs&feature=PlayList&p=4FFC6C133FA628B9&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=6

HAHA

you said i am a BITCH

thankyou,

at least i know who i am in your eyes.

and that's enough to show how deep you hate me

 but maybe it isn't a hate but it is a hurt

same like you i am hurt too 

love letter?

we were done.

and you ask me to leave you.

you said you will be far away from me,

until you 're not wished to back with me anymore.

you said it's hard for you.

you said you can't stay near.

you said you're afraid.

but you never asked me,

what i feel,

what i want.

i'm sorry for everything.

for every second that you wasted with me.

for every hugs and kisses.

for every love that you give to me.

remember your promise, boy.

oneday i will ask you for it.

because this way is all what you want.

and i just can follow you.

i'll wait your promise 

for sure, for always. 

ngung ngung bingung

kemarin mantan pacar saya bilang

" kamu berubah, ga perhatian kaya dulu lagi "

lalu saya bilang

" apasih engga ko biasa aja "

dan dia bilang

" iya kamu berubah sejak kamu deket sama cowok cowok itu "

-__________________________________-

jreng jreng keram saya gabisa bales omongannya dia

yang saya bingung semua orang bisa berubah toh?

lalu apa yang salah dengan saya?

ga salah kan kalo nambah temen?

punya banyak temen?

trus apa?

hemmm gini nih kalo punya hubungan ga ada statusnya

apa apa dibikin repot

mau deket sama si ini, mantan jeles

mau deket sama si itu, mantan gasuka

terus gimana?

ya nasib

makanya jauhin dulu tuh mantan

gabisa ngejauh?

hmmm bingung juga ya

kalo orang pacaran sih saya bakal bilang

" selingkuh aja "

masalahnya kan ini ga pacaran

trus saya harus bilang apa dong?

hubungan begini banyak sakit atinya

dikit dikit berantem

dikit dikit nangis

jadi gimana dong? 

ya makanya cari hubungan tuh yang jelas jelas aja

hhhhhhh -_- 

xoxo md  

audisi dance SALZEUS (part 2)

heeeeey guys! btw about my audition, SUKSES besaaaar yeehaaa! finally, gue d terima d dance. yah sbnrny sih smua yg ikut audisi pasti dterima -__-. tapi its oke lah. bangga juga gue dikit. mengingat malunya pas audisi. d liatin kelas 11. gaya gue ancur beneeeer dah. udah gt pas free style ohmygod bgt deh gaya gue sampah bgt eww. hahaha tapi okelaaaah yg penting masuk. hip hip horraaaaay!

audisi dance SALZEUS (part 1)

hari ini jam 8 pagi udah sampe d gedung senam buat audisi dance bareng vena. sampe sana uda ada safira yg ternyata uda nunggu dr jm stg 8. eeh uda capek"naik turun angkot. yg lain lamaaaaaaaaa bgt dtgnya. baru pd dtg sktr jm stg 10. abis itu langsunglah kta mesen tempat. trus mulai latihannya. gerakan gue super aneeeeh. malu deh. kata si kaka powernya kurang. tapi bgung deh power it yg kaya gmana. soalnya tangan gue uda pada sakit smua. trus mana nih si pelatih? jreng jreng jreng ternyata gajadi dateng. hadaaaaah. yaudah pulang deh kita zz
kesimpulan: gajadi audisi. jadinya rabu d skolah d tonton 3 angkatan! ohmygod

you! idiot!

it's so hard to forget you ya. walaupun gue udah berusaha sekeras mungkin. janji k orang"bakal lupain lo. tapi apa nyatanya mungkin gue emang munafik atau emang lo yg terlalu kuat nempel d pikiran gue. gatau lagi deh harus gmana. scara posisi lo skarang yah udah taken. dan gue tau amat sangat tau kalo lo sayang banget sama dia. haha bego gue

hello fellas!! :D

hello fellas!

this is my first post hahahaha. please enjoy my blog. later i will be write more more and more. so keep on the track guys! :D